Tomorrow, August 23, 2009 will mark my First Year Anniversary of my photography. A year where a lot has transpired, a lot have been learned, a lot of shutter released, a lot of money spent and a lot has been post processed. As I write this, I remember that not so long ago, I used to blog a lot about my Photographic Escapades and thoughts but a lot has happened to my life and I needed to focus on them. Never that I wished that storms will come to us that made me broken and literally shattered. Yes, the storms aftermaths are still there but I say enough this time and share about good things in my life, like my photography, a passion that drives my heart, an itch in my index finger to squeeze that shutter release and the sharpness in my eyes to capture the light on the subject that makes it all different.
August 23, 2008 when I braved for the first time the streets of Hidalgo in Quiapo, Manila to get that precious Nikon D60 at Mayer's photo. Together with my sister Noreen, we got my first DSLR, Nikky. It has been a long hard road to learning since then but I am very thankful that my learning curve is so steep that I never thought I could achieve in such a short span of time. In this anniversary, I would like to thank all those who have one way or another influenced my artistic side, my passion, photography.
Firstly, thanks to Bubut, my officemate and former project mate for sharing me her knowledge in photography. For letting me know
http://digital-photography-school.com/ where all of my basic photography knowledge came from. For letting me know, the Kawayan Cove - Photography Seminar by Anton Diaz of http://www.ourawesomeplanet.com.
Anton Diaz shared his thoughts and gave tips on how to make photographs in Kawayan Cove. All of these were free and was sponsored by the Kawayan Cove management. I learned a lot in this one-day tour, enjoyed taking photos and loved my flip-flop freebie of a Havaianas.
The Kawayan Cove's Bamboo Beach Club was superb but I only managed to take mediocre shots during this time.

Even so, I see them as mediocre shots these days, they inspired me to keep on shooting. So I never stopped. I was always eager to shoot and was running out of subjects. It was good that me and my friends had a trip to Bacolod City, the city of smiles. The place was so good and there was a lot to photograph. I enjoyed the Sugarcane harvesters and wish to go back there someday to give justice to what I call mediocre shots nowadays.
I was blessed with a lovely sky that I was able to make stunning photos of Bacolod.

I ended last year with a bang by my first wedding coverage. My friend Chad never expected that I can shoot that well. He was so stunned he told me, I could have done their pre-nup which they had none. In fact, Chad was just kind enough to let me take photographs of their wedding but later on I proved that my "kapal-muks" (overly confident) was worth it.

I met some notable friends in multiply in the group e-stambay or kolokoys. We had good laughs and photowalks before 2008 ended and during the 1st quarter of 2009. Later on, I laid low up until now I am inactive due to my mom getting sick and passing away last June. I must say they were not only there for me during the good laughs but they also went an extra mile for me by visiting us in my mom's wake. Thank you kolokoys! I'm proud to be one. To Janis, Pot, Chat, Echel, Direk and all the others! I never regret having known you.

Gosh, I weigh a few pounds more than I was in the photo above! LOL!
The first quarter of the year was memorable as well, as it kicked off with a bang as I met my fellow flickristasindios during my first ever photowalk in Quiapo-Binondo, Manila.

January was capped by Photoworld Asia 2009 in Glorietta where I enjoyed my first ever try in Portraiture. Micah Atanacio, the model for Canon was superb! In it spawned my creativity and that there are no limits in how one can make a good portrait. The Photoworld Asia in Manila was a superb start for the month of February as well.

February was good as well as I met a few good friends in multiply too. All of them are good-hearted too with special mention to Mian, a good self-less friend who goes out of her way to help others most especially friends.
March was fun as well but it ended up as the start of the biggest storm in my life. My mom was diagnosed of Stage 4 gastric cancer. It has taken me a while to shoot again as it pains me even what I shot was so beautiful, the emotional part of me was getting the better part of me as everything I see was sad and lonely. My love in agony series seems to be unending.
Even when was Barbie Almalbis was so pretty and have a very good singing voice, my pain wouldn't just go away.

I needed to be strong and so I prayed.
I needed guidance and so I prayed.
I needed to be brave and so I prayed.
And most of all, I needed a miracle for my mother. Until now, it pains me. Tears I try so hard for them not to fall as my sister watches. Day in and day out I prayed. I cried in public. I literally cried, sobbed and fell to my knees in Greenbelt Chapel amidst many people. In Sanctuario San Antonio, the same happened again.
My mom passed away June 23, and tomorrow August 23, will be her 2nd month and my 1st year photography anniversary. She being sick and after her interment was like a dagger piercing my heart, squeezing it and dropping chili/citrus on it. Painful but nevertheless, God did not fail to answer my prayers. Mom may not be with us now but she died a comfortable death and she was prepared for it. Thanks God for giving her the grace of a Holy Death. Indeed, He knows what's best and always take care of those He love.
I thank thee again Dearest God, as this photo is titled: "Life with all its troubles, I need you."

Blessings were there even in the midst of anxiety and pain. Ironic but I need only to trust in God's perfect plan. During my shattered days, I got my visa approved. Last July, during my broken days, I got blessed with a trip to Australia to have it activated. Most importantly, at my mom's 40th day of death, I felt she was at peace and joined the saints in heaven. Thank you and I praise you O God!
The history of my life unfolds in my photography. Emotions are kept in them and sealed with faith that God alone can make all things perfect. Little by little I move on. Things are easier than done and the aftermath of my life's storm is taking its toll but there is no point giving up as God as my good shepherd, there is nothing I lack. I need to be brave again, be strong, patient and wise, so help me God.
I tried going back on track in Photography, had a few portraiture shoots and it was fun to be back again. Limiting myself in what I have is a challenge as well. Staying competitive and keeping that learning curve sharp is a goal attainable thru determination, passion and lots of imagination. Today, I'm trying to learn to be a strobist. It is fun and challenging. I love it! Controlling the subject's lighting is awesome! Strobist is the way to be!

Now I have to sleep! Happy First Year Photography Anniversary to me!
Cheers and God bless,
Jay